using my mental health against me! please help us
Posted: Sun Nov 23, 2014 8:12 am
My name is Bonnie , I am 25 years of age and here's my story:
I had my beautiful daughter Kathryn Scarlett Gregory on March 12, 2014 at 11:01 am. 7pounds, 12 ounces. Ten toes ten fingers gorgeous as ever. CPS was called to investigate, because of Marijuana found in her stool. I told Kioshyi fish that I didn't know I was pregnant and when I found out I quit right away, and haven't smoked marijuana since. I told him about my husband's eye disease and how he was going blind, and he said he would be right back and dropped the case. Just did a home visit and that was that.
I have been going to Choices Network since 2012. A mental health clinic in phoenix, Arizona. Located off of 51st ave and McDowell. Since my pregnancy the psychiatrist Dr. Vellobos has denied me depression medication or even a referral to someone who is active and knowledgeable in that field for pregnancy. After my pregnancy she told me "she can't help me because she isn't trained in the pregnancy field" so she couldn't help me with the medications I needed ( I was also breastfeeding which I couldn't take pills when I was breastfeeding.) So she still couldn't refer me to another doctor related to the field I needed. She also told me that I am doing fine without the medications and she doesn't think I need them. ( which I forgot to mention to cps and I have a new caseworker who didn't know me at all) So I haven't gone to see my mental health doctor, Dr. Vellobos except one time after I had Kathryn. I haven't gone to Choices in a while because I knew im doing fine. I don't think my past diagnosis are correct. I haven't had a proper diagnosis since June 2013. Recently I went to Choices network on Monday 10th, 2014 and I tell them about my post partum depression and the first thing they tell me is " We are contacting CPS". Me being a new mother is terrified because I hear all the negative things about CPS. So they also ask for an example and I tell them " I hear voices that tell me to throw my daughter off the balcony. And I don't like those feelings im here for help. I love my daughter and would never ever hurt HER EVER". That was Monday November 10th. I didn't hear from the cps worker until Friday November 14th, which by the way they had stated in the meeting that they couldn't get a hold of me since Monday, and I was ignoring them when my friend stayed with me that Monday and Tuesday at myt house then we went to her house wensday and Thursday and cps called me Friday.. I was talking to pat at Choices Network she tells me the cps worker is on the other line and she will call me back. The cps worker calls five mins later and tells me "hes coming over now to come talk to me" Kioshyi fish comes into my apartment and makes me feel like a bad mom like im going to hurt my baby. The first thing he tells me after I explain whats going on is I need to find a safety monitor, I couldn't find a safety monitor and he told me hes going to have to take my child. He didn't explain why he put neglect on the paper, and I didn't see the word neglect until after I signed it and told him to get out of my house I don't like how you are coming off towards me making me feel like im going to hurt my child. I try to call his supervisor but she didn't listen to me at all. She was talking over me and basically telling me this is what is going to happen. " we are taking your child" The cps worker comes back with police and tells me we are taking your child. My pastor Micheal salamon comes up and fights with the police saying this isn't the right paperwork, go get the right paperwork and come get the child the right way. My friend Rachel burris was on speaker the whole time running to my apartment from surprise. A sergeant from the phoenix police department comes into my home and tells me that's the right paper..even though it says there is no caregiver to take care of the child, when I am the mother that takes care of the child every single day. 2 hours of arguing with the police goes by and finally they tell me we don't want to use force . MY pastor takes Kathryn from me and I didn't hand over my daughter to cps this was invoulinatry. They tell me I have a team descion meeting on Monday at 3.
On Monday November 17th, 2014 at 3pm. My support team comes and cps is there. We talked about why they put Neglect on the paper. They told me that having a mental health problem and not taking care of the mental health issue was neglect. In the meeting I didn't think about this till after but I told you early in this message I thought I was fine until recently that's why I went to my doctor on Monday for help with my post partum and they didn't help me they tore my daughter from my arms and is hurting me and my daughter. And my pastor and his wife, my mom , my best friend of five years and my sister in law destiny, all agreed saying im doing the best I can with working, coming home cleaning, taking care of the baby and myself plus a disabled finacee that is loosing his sight and taking care of myself. Basically I have a lot on my plate and they felt like it was too much for me to handle. They told me that I need to get another psych evaluation because my updated psych evaluation was in june 2013. It was wrong for what cps did I asked for help with my post partum depression and they bring up my mental health issues. I had no choice in the meeting so I thanked them for their help and keeping my daughter safe. In the meeting they said I could bring her home I just needed a safety monitor but no one in the room had a clean background. I was told cps was supposed to help me with a safety monitor if I couldn't.. they did not. They haven't even called me for the visists im supposed to get twice a week yet today is November 20th 2014. They told me a court date is going to be set up.
So I didn't read the cps handbook until one of the ladies on this post partum group online told me it was wrong for them to use my mental health as neglect because it doesn't say it in the handbook. I have talked to multiple sources and am getting help with my post partum and in getting my daughter back. I am reaching out because this is wrong. They have no right in taking my daughter over my mental health. I am a responsible mother and if I needed help I would go seek it out like I did for my post partum. I feel discriminated for them using my disability against me. I know I have had a case in the past but it is dropped. They had no right coming into my home and ripping her from me when I asked help with my post partum depression. They wrote neglect instead of post partum, that doesn't make sense to me.. I asked help with my post partum, the cps worker comes in and didn't even explain why he put neglect and took my daughter. This is wrong I am suffering from post partum depression and they took my daughter from me which is making my post partum despression worse. They didn't give me any resources in post partum help. They used my mental health against me and told me I need a proper diagnosis. This is discrimination. Its hard to find a lawyer that will fight cps, I am looking high and low and have support from a lot of mothers online and am still going to get a lot more support.
I hope that this letter has touched someone and is willing to stand up for what is right.
Thank you for your time.
Sincerely,
Bonnie
I don't have money for an attorney.. I found out they don't state issue a attorney for the case.
I had my beautiful daughter Kathryn Scarlett Gregory on March 12, 2014 at 11:01 am. 7pounds, 12 ounces. Ten toes ten fingers gorgeous as ever. CPS was called to investigate, because of Marijuana found in her stool. I told Kioshyi fish that I didn't know I was pregnant and when I found out I quit right away, and haven't smoked marijuana since. I told him about my husband's eye disease and how he was going blind, and he said he would be right back and dropped the case. Just did a home visit and that was that.
I have been going to Choices Network since 2012. A mental health clinic in phoenix, Arizona. Located off of 51st ave and McDowell. Since my pregnancy the psychiatrist Dr. Vellobos has denied me depression medication or even a referral to someone who is active and knowledgeable in that field for pregnancy. After my pregnancy she told me "she can't help me because she isn't trained in the pregnancy field" so she couldn't help me with the medications I needed ( I was also breastfeeding which I couldn't take pills when I was breastfeeding.) So she still couldn't refer me to another doctor related to the field I needed. She also told me that I am doing fine without the medications and she doesn't think I need them. ( which I forgot to mention to cps and I have a new caseworker who didn't know me at all) So I haven't gone to see my mental health doctor, Dr. Vellobos except one time after I had Kathryn. I haven't gone to Choices in a while because I knew im doing fine. I don't think my past diagnosis are correct. I haven't had a proper diagnosis since June 2013. Recently I went to Choices network on Monday 10th, 2014 and I tell them about my post partum depression and the first thing they tell me is " We are contacting CPS". Me being a new mother is terrified because I hear all the negative things about CPS. So they also ask for an example and I tell them " I hear voices that tell me to throw my daughter off the balcony. And I don't like those feelings im here for help. I love my daughter and would never ever hurt HER EVER". That was Monday November 10th. I didn't hear from the cps worker until Friday November 14th, which by the way they had stated in the meeting that they couldn't get a hold of me since Monday, and I was ignoring them when my friend stayed with me that Monday and Tuesday at myt house then we went to her house wensday and Thursday and cps called me Friday.. I was talking to pat at Choices Network she tells me the cps worker is on the other line and she will call me back. The cps worker calls five mins later and tells me "hes coming over now to come talk to me" Kioshyi fish comes into my apartment and makes me feel like a bad mom like im going to hurt my baby. The first thing he tells me after I explain whats going on is I need to find a safety monitor, I couldn't find a safety monitor and he told me hes going to have to take my child. He didn't explain why he put neglect on the paper, and I didn't see the word neglect until after I signed it and told him to get out of my house I don't like how you are coming off towards me making me feel like im going to hurt my child. I try to call his supervisor but she didn't listen to me at all. She was talking over me and basically telling me this is what is going to happen. " we are taking your child" The cps worker comes back with police and tells me we are taking your child. My pastor Micheal salamon comes up and fights with the police saying this isn't the right paperwork, go get the right paperwork and come get the child the right way. My friend Rachel burris was on speaker the whole time running to my apartment from surprise. A sergeant from the phoenix police department comes into my home and tells me that's the right paper..even though it says there is no caregiver to take care of the child, when I am the mother that takes care of the child every single day. 2 hours of arguing with the police goes by and finally they tell me we don't want to use force . MY pastor takes Kathryn from me and I didn't hand over my daughter to cps this was invoulinatry. They tell me I have a team descion meeting on Monday at 3.
On Monday November 17th, 2014 at 3pm. My support team comes and cps is there. We talked about why they put Neglect on the paper. They told me that having a mental health problem and not taking care of the mental health issue was neglect. In the meeting I didn't think about this till after but I told you early in this message I thought I was fine until recently that's why I went to my doctor on Monday for help with my post partum and they didn't help me they tore my daughter from my arms and is hurting me and my daughter. And my pastor and his wife, my mom , my best friend of five years and my sister in law destiny, all agreed saying im doing the best I can with working, coming home cleaning, taking care of the baby and myself plus a disabled finacee that is loosing his sight and taking care of myself. Basically I have a lot on my plate and they felt like it was too much for me to handle. They told me that I need to get another psych evaluation because my updated psych evaluation was in june 2013. It was wrong for what cps did I asked for help with my post partum depression and they bring up my mental health issues. I had no choice in the meeting so I thanked them for their help and keeping my daughter safe. In the meeting they said I could bring her home I just needed a safety monitor but no one in the room had a clean background. I was told cps was supposed to help me with a safety monitor if I couldn't.. they did not. They haven't even called me for the visists im supposed to get twice a week yet today is November 20th 2014. They told me a court date is going to be set up.
So I didn't read the cps handbook until one of the ladies on this post partum group online told me it was wrong for them to use my mental health as neglect because it doesn't say it in the handbook. I have talked to multiple sources and am getting help with my post partum and in getting my daughter back. I am reaching out because this is wrong. They have no right in taking my daughter over my mental health. I am a responsible mother and if I needed help I would go seek it out like I did for my post partum. I feel discriminated for them using my disability against me. I know I have had a case in the past but it is dropped. They had no right coming into my home and ripping her from me when I asked help with my post partum depression. They wrote neglect instead of post partum, that doesn't make sense to me.. I asked help with my post partum, the cps worker comes in and didn't even explain why he put neglect and took my daughter. This is wrong I am suffering from post partum depression and they took my daughter from me which is making my post partum despression worse. They didn't give me any resources in post partum help. They used my mental health against me and told me I need a proper diagnosis. This is discrimination. Its hard to find a lawyer that will fight cps, I am looking high and low and have support from a lot of mothers online and am still going to get a lot more support.
I hope that this letter has touched someone and is willing to stand up for what is right.
Thank you for your time.
Sincerely,
Bonnie
I don't have money for an attorney.. I found out they don't state issue a attorney for the case.