HELP! Someone PLEASE HELP!
Posted: Sat Oct 25, 2014 2:39 am
On Wednesday, October 29th, 2014, the state plans to terminate my parental rights. I AM GOING OUT OF MY MIND!!! I LOVE MY SWEET BABIES SO MUCH THAT I CANNOT IMAGINE LIVING PAST THAT DATE! My lawyer (at least, that's what she calls herself) won't return my calls, won't subpoena ANYONE or ANYTHING for me, and won't file a JV-180 (whatever that is). I am not stupid: I have three college degrees, including an SMBA and a Marketing degree. It's just that I have been so sick, and so depressed, and struggling with a severe case of PTSD, that I am PARALYZED!!! I cannot even get out of bed a lot of times, and I wake up crying hysterically all the time. My blood pressure is off the charts since this year started, and I am on FOUR strong blood pressure meds already!
I am supposed to be the man of the family, but last year I lost my mom, then my sweet babies were taken, then my dad passed on this year, then two months later, TEN DAYS BEFORE OUR COURT DATE WHERE WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GET OUR BABIES BACK, my wife left me. After that, the court postponed the hearing for one more month, and when we went in, the judge now stated that we were unfit EVER to be parents, that we would NEVER change, etc., and that the court was now actively seeking adoption! I have been sober for over TWENTY YEARS! (and my wife was sober while we were together), we neither smoked nor did drugs or took ANYTHING that wasn't doctor prescribed. We fed them incredibly healthy food. We got ALL of their shots and checkups, and took them to the emergency room or their doctor if they EVER had a fever, or a sore throat or an earache, etc. Even CPS, that lied and said that they "rescued" the babies from a "FILTHY" house (it was SPOTLESS, and the CPS lady on the scene said EXACTLY THAT...at the time!), stated in their report that the babies' skins were "PRISTINE!" That's how clean we kept our sweet angels! WE LOVE OUR BABIES MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF! They were NEVER abused (except by a foster family who was strangling our son; you could see the scabs and bruises around his little neck!!!!!!!!!!) OH MY GOD!!! I can't type anymore now...
Okay, I'm back. IMMEDIATELY after that court hearing, I got a letter saying that, CPS "FOUND" a gay couple of men in San Diego who wanted to have a family. Well, now they do have one: MINE!!! And that's comprised of three beautiful, smart, sweet, precious, blond-haired, blue-eyed babies!!! MY SWEET BABIES!!!
I don't know what I'm doing and the depression is so bad that I don't sleep, I don't eat, I cry all day, I cry when I see other people's children, etc. Today, at 1:00 pm is my LAST visit with my babies, EVER! They are 6, 5 and 2. I don't know how I can say goodbye without dying! CPS wants me NEVER to show emotion when the babies are there, but how in God's Name can I say goodbye to my babies, supposedly FOREVER, and still keep breathing?
I didn't have running water because the landlord turned it off, and in Palm Desert (and other towns I found out), ONLY the OWNER may turn on the water! But THAT DAY, when they took my precious babies, I was moving into a house with EVERYTHING. They still took my children even after they verified that it was true. I was sick for so very long, but earlier this year my new doctor diagnosed me as having NO IMMUNE SYSTEM. I almost died a number of times last year, and before I was diagnosed this year I could not make all of the court ordered appointments BECAUSE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL! When I tried to prove this with the hospital and doctor letters and records, the judge would not allow it into the record. I am receiving treatment now and I have the start of an immune system. I am getting healthier, or rather, I WAS getting healthier until I got so depressed that I couldn't eat, sleep, etc.
I called EVERY LAWYER THAT I COULD FIND ALL OVER THE COUNTRY, and ESPECIALLY the ones who were suggested to me as being able to help. I don't have any money, but in most cases that wouldn't help anyhow. Even the lawyers who supposedly do CPS cases for a LIVING wouldn't take my case. They all said a variation of the same thing: "We don't do CPS cases...but so-and-so might be able to help you..." Of course, "so-and-so" NEVER COULD HELP IN ANY WAY, except maybe to give me another "so-and-so" who MIGHT be able to help! I did find one CHRISTIAN law firm where a lawyer said, "We MIGHT help you to keep the babies from being adopted by a GAY couple, but we won't promise you ANYTHING, and you HAVE TO FIRE YOUR CURRENT LAWYER! I have to fire my worthless layer FIRST, then they MIGHT help me? How does that work? How am I supposed to have hope about that? And I don't have anything against gays, but I want my babies back! And all that they MIGHT do would to be to block THIS adoption for me, and then allow any other non-gay adoption to go through. HOW DOES THAT HELP ME IN ANY WAY???!!! That just helps to promote THEIR agenda! How can these EVIL people be allowed to do stuff like that to a grieving parent such as me???!!!
I HAVE to get my medical records into the court records. How do I do that? Do I have grounds for an appeal?
I LITERALLY CANNOT TYPE ANYMORE! I cannot see the screen, and won't be able to for a long while. I know this feeling... And it seriously doesn't help that this website, while I am POURING MY HEART OUT, keeps wanting me to "MEET PRETTY ASIAN WOMAN!" REALLY???!!! NOW???!!! On THIS website???!!! Seriously, check the attachment at the bottom!
Anyhow, I know that it isn't considered the smart thing to do, but here goes anyhow. My phone number is (760) 774-6714. SOMEONE, PLEASE HELP!!!
I am supposed to be the man of the family, but last year I lost my mom, then my sweet babies were taken, then my dad passed on this year, then two months later, TEN DAYS BEFORE OUR COURT DATE WHERE WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GET OUR BABIES BACK, my wife left me. After that, the court postponed the hearing for one more month, and when we went in, the judge now stated that we were unfit EVER to be parents, that we would NEVER change, etc., and that the court was now actively seeking adoption! I have been sober for over TWENTY YEARS! (and my wife was sober while we were together), we neither smoked nor did drugs or took ANYTHING that wasn't doctor prescribed. We fed them incredibly healthy food. We got ALL of their shots and checkups, and took them to the emergency room or their doctor if they EVER had a fever, or a sore throat or an earache, etc. Even CPS, that lied and said that they "rescued" the babies from a "FILTHY" house (it was SPOTLESS, and the CPS lady on the scene said EXACTLY THAT...at the time!), stated in their report that the babies' skins were "PRISTINE!" That's how clean we kept our sweet angels! WE LOVE OUR BABIES MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF! They were NEVER abused (except by a foster family who was strangling our son; you could see the scabs and bruises around his little neck!!!!!!!!!!) OH MY GOD!!! I can't type anymore now...
Okay, I'm back. IMMEDIATELY after that court hearing, I got a letter saying that, CPS "FOUND" a gay couple of men in San Diego who wanted to have a family. Well, now they do have one: MINE!!! And that's comprised of three beautiful, smart, sweet, precious, blond-haired, blue-eyed babies!!! MY SWEET BABIES!!!
I don't know what I'm doing and the depression is so bad that I don't sleep, I don't eat, I cry all day, I cry when I see other people's children, etc. Today, at 1:00 pm is my LAST visit with my babies, EVER! They are 6, 5 and 2. I don't know how I can say goodbye without dying! CPS wants me NEVER to show emotion when the babies are there, but how in God's Name can I say goodbye to my babies, supposedly FOREVER, and still keep breathing?
I didn't have running water because the landlord turned it off, and in Palm Desert (and other towns I found out), ONLY the OWNER may turn on the water! But THAT DAY, when they took my precious babies, I was moving into a house with EVERYTHING. They still took my children even after they verified that it was true. I was sick for so very long, but earlier this year my new doctor diagnosed me as having NO IMMUNE SYSTEM. I almost died a number of times last year, and before I was diagnosed this year I could not make all of the court ordered appointments BECAUSE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL! When I tried to prove this with the hospital and doctor letters and records, the judge would not allow it into the record. I am receiving treatment now and I have the start of an immune system. I am getting healthier, or rather, I WAS getting healthier until I got so depressed that I couldn't eat, sleep, etc.
I called EVERY LAWYER THAT I COULD FIND ALL OVER THE COUNTRY, and ESPECIALLY the ones who were suggested to me as being able to help. I don't have any money, but in most cases that wouldn't help anyhow. Even the lawyers who supposedly do CPS cases for a LIVING wouldn't take my case. They all said a variation of the same thing: "We don't do CPS cases...but so-and-so might be able to help you..." Of course, "so-and-so" NEVER COULD HELP IN ANY WAY, except maybe to give me another "so-and-so" who MIGHT be able to help! I did find one CHRISTIAN law firm where a lawyer said, "We MIGHT help you to keep the babies from being adopted by a GAY couple, but we won't promise you ANYTHING, and you HAVE TO FIRE YOUR CURRENT LAWYER! I have to fire my worthless layer FIRST, then they MIGHT help me? How does that work? How am I supposed to have hope about that? And I don't have anything against gays, but I want my babies back! And all that they MIGHT do would to be to block THIS adoption for me, and then allow any other non-gay adoption to go through. HOW DOES THAT HELP ME IN ANY WAY???!!! That just helps to promote THEIR agenda! How can these EVIL people be allowed to do stuff like that to a grieving parent such as me???!!!
I HAVE to get my medical records into the court records. How do I do that? Do I have grounds for an appeal?
I LITERALLY CANNOT TYPE ANYMORE! I cannot see the screen, and won't be able to for a long while. I know this feeling... And it seriously doesn't help that this website, while I am POURING MY HEART OUT, keeps wanting me to "MEET PRETTY ASIAN WOMAN!" REALLY???!!! NOW???!!! On THIS website???!!! Seriously, check the attachment at the bottom!
Anyhow, I know that it isn't considered the smart thing to do, but here goes anyhow. My phone number is (760) 774-6714. SOMEONE, PLEASE HELP!!!